I have insisted on trying to be as strong as possible while he is gone...I have learned in the last 15 days that strong doesn't me emotionless. I find myself struggling more and more as the days DRAG on yearning for him to come home. Tonight he told me that in the morning he will begin what they call Exposure type therapy which is all part of what they call CPT...this aspect is supposed to be especially rough on the Veteran.
I know that life must get worse before it gets better but to be honest I am tired of it getting worse...I fear the words..."it can't get any worse" yeah right don't say it...cuz it will happen...trust me I have and it did.
He is making some good progress thus far in the program and I am excited...but I am trying not to get too excited because I know that the man I married may never be completely back from the man who is constantly stuck 7000mi away in Iraq.
May the Gods smile on me and provide me the strength and intestinal fortitude to continue on and be the strong and emotionally honest woman that he and my children need me to be.
